tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-157363382024-03-19T11:55:47.699+08:00There's No Place Like Home<i>The Best Of Jessism Is Just A Mouse Click Away.</i>~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.comBlogger190125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-83248700949838143052023-05-30T11:40:00.004+08:002023-05-30T11:41:31.233+08:00ReflectionHad an interesting chat with someone I've known for many years yesterday.
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It has been an ongoing theme that I will tell him: Despite knowing him for more than a decade, he still strikes me as someone who always keep to himself. I don't often see him showing his real emotions to anyone and there's always a sense of restrain. Even when we're out having fun, you can tell that the wheels in his head are turning. Whenever he's sad or down he disappears, which worries me, but I know very well deep inside that he'll resurface once he manages to sort his emotions out. And seeing all these...I just wanted him to be happy, to be able to let loose and be himself.
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After the recent conversation we had, it struck me that I'm not all that different from him. <i>(Took me a decade but yeah...)</i>
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I've always been the kind of person who never really show my true self to anyone. You may know me all your life and still don't know anything about the <i>real</i> me. I learn that in life, whenever you open yourself up and show people who you are, you end up making yourself more vulnerable and making it easier for others to hurt you. So shutting everyone out and boxing myself in seem to be the best option.
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Perhaps we are all the same. Tired of being letdown and so afraid of getting hurt that the proectective layer comes on naturally so often that it became a habit. One that evolves slowly from a habit into a survival instinct that makes us who we are today. In the end, everyone sees a different part of us bubt no one ever truly sees all.
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Looking back at the conversation we had, it also got me thinking... Is there someone else out there who, also like me, is able to see through the mask I'm wearing or just indifferent? Hmmm....
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<i>~ © 29052023 ~</i>~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-43911946996547934452021-12-09T17:01:00.002+08:002021-12-09T17:01:59.416+08:00Victim, Victimized or Victim Playing?So recently,a Malaysian actor made headlines for starring in a gay web series. His parents and the government are now taking legal action against the production company. <i>(Read <a href="https://www.therakyatpost.com/fun/2021/12/07/teen-actor-government-taking-legal-action-after-local-gay-drama-came-out-online" target="_blank">here</a>)</i>
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Since I have so many friends who are writers, performers, producers, and legal practitioners, I think this is a very good topic for an open discussion.
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Even you are just an avid reader of my unusually long posts, I really would love to hear from you.
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Let's just say that someone contacted you, and told you that they wanted you to star in a web series. They tell you what the story is about. You went for audition. You got the part. Given the contract. Read the contract. Agreed to it. Signed the contract. Given the script. Read the script. Attend table read. Went for storyboard runthrough. Shooting starts. Scene one. Take one. Take two. Take three, etc. Scene Two up to the Final Scene. Shooting wraps. You get paid. Show went into post-production. Rough cut completed. Reshoot (perhaps) because of NG scenes. Additional scenes shot for conti. Post production continues. Production completed. Contracted promotion and roadshow concurrently in discussion during post production. Teaser trailer released. Official trailer released.
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Question 1: Since you will be paid for your presence in the show, how do you think the production company is going to get back the money invested to complete the shoot?
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Question 2: At which part of the above production process do you think you should find out about the content of the show you are acting in?
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Question 3: If you are such a bad actor and just read whatever lines given to you. At which point do you think you would have a rough idea on what the show is about?
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Question 4: If a gay-themed show is NOT what you signed up for, would you highlight it to the production team and inform them of your intention to drop out? Or go through with it?
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Question 5: If you no problem going through it, even after knowing that it is a gay-themed show, would you have a problem on which platform the show will be released?
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Question 6: At which point do you think that you are a "victim of circumstances"? Why?
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Let's discuss.
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<i>~ a very curious person © 09122021:1700 ~</i>~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-7839209650244244662021-08-21T00:00:00.003+08:002021-08-21T00:00:00.193+08:00Dear Malaysians...<i>[Disclaimer: This post has no intention to annoy anyone or bring any form of racial disharmony. If you're easily butthurt and overly sensitive, stop reading and leave this post immediately. The author shall not, and will not be responsible and/or liable for your hurt butt and over-sensitivity. Read at your own risk.]</i>
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Dear Malaysians, where are all the supporters and boycotters of the Israeli-Palestinian war? Why are they not speaking up and criticizing the Taliban for killings of innocent Afghans?
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Dear Malaysians, why are we not boycotting China for their prosecution of Uighur Muslims and sending them to detention camps to be sterilized, raped and tortured?
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Dear Malaysians, where are all our religious-centric ministers who are afraid of the signs of a cross but keeps mum when the Chinese Communist Party forcibly demolished mosques and resting place of the muslim community, just to build public toilets on them?
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Dear Malaysians, where are the religious and racial-extremist who claimed that a country led by Malays will be better? Why aren't they making noise and stage protests when their Malay ministers failed the country so badly?
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It is always easy to discriminate.
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And let's admit it, although we live in this beautiful multiracial country, we're all a little bit racist.
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But at the end of the day, we have been living in this country long enough to know and respect each other's religions and beliefs.
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We all know better not to serve our Muslim friends pork, like how we all know not to serve our Hindu friends beef... <i>(Well, the Chinese practically eats everything, so let's not focus too much on them.)</i>
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Now let me ask you this: Why are all our fast food chains serving beef at all their outlets but not pork? Are we not "sensitive" enough to care about our Hindu friends' religious beliefs? To be politically correct, all fast food chain should only serves chicken and mutton, no?
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Dear Malaysians, it's time for us to wake up and see what the kleptocratic power hungry politicians are doing to the country. They do not care about our welfare. They do not care about our well-being. They do not care about our livelihood. And they certainly do not care whether we are dead or alive!
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It has always been in their political agenda to create a huge racial divide in this beautiful multiracial country we live in, so that the Chinese will always only vote for the Chinese, the Malay will always vote for the Malays, and the Indians will always vote for the Indians; pitting one race against another so that the divide grows bigger. This is how they "divide and conquer".
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Unless all of us come together and accept each other's differences, there is not way this beautiful multi-racial country is going to thrive.
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We are lucky to be in a country with fuck loads of natural resources, land that is good for various agriculture, safe and away from deadly typhoons, earthquakes, tornados and all forms of natural disasters. But let me ask you this: Why isn't our country on top of the export list and why are we not the richest country in the Southeast Asia? Instead, small countries like Brunei and Singapore, that are many MANY times smaller than our country, and have lesser resources than us can be so far ahead and have currencies 3 times higher than ours!
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Dear Malaysians, it's time for us to look at capabilities and qualifications instead of <i>kulitfication</i>. If we continue to be divided by all those kleptocratic power hungry politicians, this country will never prosper!
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Dear Malaysians, we live in a democratic country. We have the choice of choosing the government we wanted! If a Malay Prime Minister don't work, then let's shift our focus to have a capable Indian Prime Minister. If that Indian Prime Minister is still as useless, let's go for Chinese Prime Minister! If the person still can't do the job, let's move on to East Malaysia and start over! If that still doesn't work, we should have an Orang Asli Prime Minister! They are, after all, the rightful "<i>bumiputeras</i>" of this land. What's the worse that could happen? How will we know where the country will be heading to if we don't give it a try?
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<i>~ a very disappointed Malaysian © 21082021:1210 ~</i>~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-25274114170053549612020-10-04T21:48:00.000+08:002020-10-04T21:48:08.636+08:00LossIt hadn't been easy. For years I've been struggling with it and I always thought that I could contain it, that I would be able to control it but the sad truth is: I can't. And I'm slowly losing that battle. <div><br></div><div>In the past, I attempted to end things. Obviously, I failed. Perhaps the forces at work is telling me that it's not my time just yet.</div><div><br></div><div>How many knew about this? None.<br></div><div><br></div><div>I've been living with a mask for as long as I could remember. A mask that I created so that I could fit in. Something that won't let anyone know that I'm different. It's tiring. Sometimes it wears me down, and when it did, all I had to do was to sleep it off. All I need to do is sleep my day away on a weekend, storing enough energy for me to go on the following week. </div><div><br></div><div>Sometimes I would feel so drained that I would just crash right after work. It's like my body running low on battery and shuts down. </div><div><br></div><div>A rough month ago, the need of shutting down become increasingly frequent, and it's wearing me down even more. I began to feel detached. It's like I'm standing on the outside looking in. It's like I'm just an observer of what is going on around me. All it's becoming more taxing to put the masks on. It drains me so much that I started to lose interest in everything. Every day became increasingly tough, and it's just about trying to get by and make it to the end of the day, so that I could have some me time.</div><div><br></div><div>Three weeks ago, the worse happened. Getting by is just not working anymore. Before I knew it, the numbness took over. I suddenly couldn't feel any emotions that I should be feeling. The sitcom I love looked so much like my surroundings. Everybody is having fun and enjoying and I'm just an observer on the other side of the screen, looking in. </div><div><br></div><div>I started to lose interest in everything around me, and all I wanted to do is to be alone. Alone in my own world where I don't have to go around pleasing anyone or care about anybody's feelings or fit in... on my bed, under the comfort of my blanket. I don't feel like talking or to anyone, do anything, or even think. Just blank.</div><div><br></div><div>I slowly noticed that my memory started to fade as well. I can't really remember what I had for lunch or dinner the day before, and then it became increasingly clear when I can't recall what I was doing earlier that same day.</div><div><br></div><div>Two weeks ago, I started to wonder what's the point of all this. No one will ever understand this and no one cares. In fact, I don't need anyone to care. I just wanted to be normal. To fit in. To be like everyone else. Maybe things would be better in another life. Maybe if I could uninstall and hit the restart button, I could start things over. You know, get a better character or avatar that is normal, more likeable, and able to fit in, just like a mobile game. Yes, I was on another verge...</div><div><br></div><div>That's when I knew I'm losing the battle. I needed help. A part of me knows that this time, if it happens, it's not going to be an attempt...</div>~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-16802596340659032592020-09-21T11:34:00.004+08:002020-09-21T11:35:14.800+08:00ShutSo for gawdknows how many times this year, it came back again. I know it's much worse than the previous times because this time around, I'm complete numb. I could barely feel the sense of any emotion when I should be and it's draining a lot more of my energy than usual when I'm out with that mask I put on when I'm around people.
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I'm constantly tired and stressed out and this time around, I really don't know what I could do. I feel like an empty shell. I know that I'm in that shell but somehow, that shell seems to be broken. It's not functioning the way it used to and I'm detached from everything. The world could be burning down and I still won't give a shit about it.
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This is no longer a shitting out process. It's slowly shutting down.~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-21597388696442915392020-05-15T15:03:00.000+08:002020-05-15T15:03:23.755+08:00Dilemma I'm a very <i>very</i> personal person. My private life is extremely private to me. I not just hate, I despise people sharing things about me and discussing things that I share with them in confidence with others. <br />
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I may seem very outgoing most of the time but it is, in fact, a mask that I’m slowly getting used to putting it on every time of the day. It is whenever I’m back at the comfort of my own shell that I could finally take the heavy and tiring mask off and be my own usual self. However, the price to pay is high. I’m usually very tired at the end of the day and there is barely enough energy in me to have any of my <i>me</i> time before I either doze off out of exhaustion, or mentally convince myself to get some rest because tomorrow is going to be another tiring day that I would have to put the mask right back on. <br />
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Those who know me personally must be wondering: How can that be? He seems to be very happy all the time and is always someone we could count on and go to! He’s not that kind of a person!<br />
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Well, I hate to break it to you. I am <i>that</i> kind of a person. <br />
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Like I mentioned, I don’t like sharing about my personal life. And to make matters worse, I'm a Cancerian that also have trust issues. I do not trust anyone with any information on anything that is personal about me. So when I finally think that I’ve build that trust with a certain someone, finally open up, and that person goes right ahead and break that trust by spreading out what I’ve shared, there's <b>never</b> going to be any form of turning back. At the same time, the shell on my back became harder, and heavier for me to bear. So much that sometimes I feel like I can no longer carry it another step further. <br />
<!--- I do enjoy spending time with my friends. But if you know anyone of them, go on ahead and ask them how much they know about me in private? Like my real true self. I could bet you no one will be able to tell you much about me. They might know about my family, my work and that’s pretty much it. Even when it comes to relationship, they might vaguely know about how many person I’ve dated and that’s about it. They wouldn’t know much about this person, how we’re doing, whether we’re getting along alright, etc. And if you ask any further, you’ll find that a handful of them might only hold one small piece of the puzzle but none of them really knows anything. You can say it’s because I chose not to tell them but at the same time, did any of them notice any of it? ---><br />
This post is not meant for any readers out there to understand or know me better but more of a rant. There has been a lot of things going on lately that is really stressing me out badly. I have noticed that the stress is starting to take a negative toll on me physically and mentally. I haven’t been eating well, sleeping well, I’m constantly feeling down and my stress level is off the hook. <br />
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Most of the time I would I just wanted to hide in the comfort of my room, under the safe surrounding of my sheets and spend the day just doing nothing in particular. But even this, I have been lately been deprived of. And it has been driving me crazy.<br />
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I really don’t want to feel this way and I definitely don’t want to live a life like this. Time waits for no one; with age catching up fast on me, time is really something that I don’t have the luxury of wasting. There are decisions that I would have to make. Regardless whichever road I take, it will definitely hurt. Question to myself now is: How long should I continue dragging when I know that it is going to be bad? And how many innocent people would have to suffer along with me while I spread my negativity? Sigh… <br />
~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-5122800022850278392020-02-22T23:24:00.003+08:002020-02-22T23:24:55.883+08:00Empty, Angry, NumbI thought I was getting better. <br />
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I've been trying very hard to claw my way out of that dark hole that I was in for the past few days. And just when I thought that I was seeing light at the end of that tunnel today. Or at least what I thought it was, then I got hit by an unnecessary beam and fell further into the depths.<br />
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For no reason I cried myself to sleep this afternoon, only to wake up to an even more emptier, angrier version of me. <br />
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I don't know what I want, I don't know what I could do. So I ended up curling under the comforting sense of my blanket for the past five hours or so, feeling empty, angry, numb.<br />
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I don't know how much longer I need, or if I'm even able to find my way out. I really don't. I don't even know if I can..<br />
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It's so hard to breathe it times I just wish that that the world could just shut the fuck up...or maybe it's me that don't belong? Perhaps I am the one who should just shut the hell up and dissolve into nothingness. ~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-41773511629330663672019-05-31T15:27:00.002+08:002019-05-31T15:34:38.549+08:00Racism in Malaysia<b>[Disclaimer: This post has no intention to annoy anyone or bring any form of racial disharmony. If you're easily butthurt, stop reading and leave this post immediately. The author shall not, and will not be responsible and/or liable for your hurt butt. Read at your own risk.]</b><br />
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Just a thought: A lot of right wing Malays are saying that Chinese shouldn't complain about the education racial quota when Chinese employers are also being racist because they only hire "Chinese speaking" employees. <br />
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First thing first, the requirement is Chinese speaking, which means if you can speak Chinese, you stand a chance to be hired. There's nothing to do with race. In fact, a lot of my Malay friends back in Penang/Kedah can speak even better Hokkien and Mandarin than me. <br />
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Then there are those who also say that Chinese and Tamil school should be shut down and everyone should just attend <i>sekolah kebangsaan</i>. This, I totally agree. And you know what? While we're doing that, it also should be made mandatory for EVERYONE to study English, Malay, Chinese and Tamil. All four languages MUST obtain at least a Credit in SPM order for you to even graduate! Yes, <b><u>graduate</u></b>. No more taking scoring average to determine the passing marks in SPM as well. ALL passing marks for all four languages should be set at 60% and above. This way no one can complain about one not being able to speak or understand the other person's language half the time. <br />
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When a Chinese/Indian student wanted to learn how to perfect their Malay they would interact and speak to a Malay classmate more and vice-versa; and we would all have a better understanding of each other without judging a person's skin color.<br />
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All religious studies should also be made mandatory for all students. No more of those <i>Pendidikan Moral</i> bullshit. Since all religion wants their followers to do good, it's only fair if Muslim, Buddhist, Hindus, and Christian students get to study more about their own religion just like Muslim students who are currently attending <i>Agama</i> classes. For those Chinese students who always complain it's hard to memorized the <i>nilai murni</i> and it's stupid because every thing sounds the same and roughly carries the same meaning, and the Muslim students have it easy by just answering things about their religious belief. Well, now trying writing an essay about how to achieve Buddhist enlightenment or something on the history of Buddhism. Oh, and also, all essays must be written in sanskrit. <i>(It's only fair since Muslim students needed to learn Jawi, right?)</i><br />
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Now that everyone is treated equally, racial quota in the education system should be abolished. Whoever scores the highest and the best goes to the best university and those who failed... well, too bad. <br />
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This way, everyone in Malaysia now speaks all the major languages; when employers wanted to hire someone who "speaks English", "speaks Chinese", "speaks Malay" or "speaks Tamil", everyone would know how to speak the language and no more accusation of employers being racially bias when they wanted to hire people that speaks a certain language. Well... except for employers who wanted to hire someone who "speaks Japanese". I'm sure as hell they must be racist. Now let's work together as Malaysians and chase those company out of Malaysia! 🙄<br />
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<i>- jessism © 31052019:1450 -</i>~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-67511801539307573822018-07-09T22:02:00.002+08:002019-05-31T15:35:11.978+08:00Gloomy MondayIt is a Monday. Where everyone is still in a slow and gloomy mood to get back into something dreadful call work. <br />
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For some it is just another mundane and slow day to start the week. For some, this afternoon, they received news that a friend had bid them goodbye. Literally.<br />
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The person, which I do not know in person, was mentioned in so many of my Facebook feeds that I went to look him up. <br />
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Scrolling through his final feeds, I came across a live video he posted prior to embarking on his final journey. He was dressed up as presentable as he can be and trying his best to flash his best smile as he said his final goodbye on the live feed. He was visibly shaking and crying.<br />
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While watching the video, I cried. <br />
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By the time the live feed ended, he was mentally prepared and his choice was made. <br />
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Towards the end of his journey in life, he promised all his friends in the feed that he would want to leave the best of him for everyone. Shortly after his feed ended, as promised, he posted a picture of him flashing his final bright and happy smile; the best that he could muster from his state of mind and emotion at the time. It was how he wanted those who know him to remember him by, and it was beautiful. <br />
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If I was going, I sure would want people to remember me like that as well. Flashing my best smile at everyone and giving them my final reassurance that everything will be fine.<br />
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During his live feed, his friends were asking him to reflect and think about the people he would left behind, those he would hurt, about how his parents having a hard time bring him up and this is not the way he should repay them, about the things he could achieve in life, telling him how much he is making them worry, how he didn't give others a chance to understand him. While one said that he should look on the bright side of things, another said that "life goes on. Don’t be so sad!".<br />
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Well, I hate to be the asshole bearer of bad news but if I am going to end my life, the last thing I wanted to be reminded of would be who I left behind or how much I would hurt them. For you know, they might be what drove me to it in the first place. If "life" could go on and I could just throw away the "sadness", I wouldn't be so depressed now, would I?<br />
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So who am I to be talking shit judging his so-called friends when someone I don't even know has gone somewhere far away? Well, it's because I've been there.<br />
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When I popped those pills years ago, all I could think about is how much weight will be lifted once all these ended. I really couldn't and wouldn't be bothered about what you wanted me to achieve in life nor do I give two shits about your worries. I just wanted all of it to go away. <br />
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As you can read this post, it shows that I am alive still. I didn't go. Maybe it wasn't my time. Maybe the Gods felt that I should suffer even more before I go. But today, someone did went. <br />
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Depression is real. VERY real. Those who are around you might be smiling just for the sake of YOU. It's not because they are outgoing and really happy, they are just doing it for YOU, so that YOU could be happy. How would I know? Because I am doing that almost on a daily basis. <br />
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My life didn't end. But I am at a constant uphill battle of my own trying to fight away the demons.<br />
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Some of you who thought you knew me well enough might be thinking: "Nah, you're just being a drama queen." Or perhaps "that's not the person I know of", which goes to show how little you know about the person you call 'friend'. <br />
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Whenever someone question their value or worth in life, it's not for you to blast them with: "People like you who doesn't value your life doesn't deserve to live" <i>(Yes, I've gotten this)</i> or gives them religious quotes on how the Gods would punish them for taking their own lives <i>(I've heard this one too)</i>, or how you will unfriend them if they joke about this <i>(and this one too)</i>. <br />
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Whenever I am down, I don't need you to tell me: "Why are you always so moody?" or saying that it's definitely "another one" of my "mood swings". <br />
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And you think that I never try reaching out for help? When I told a family member years ago that I have depression, I constantly think of ending my life, and I think I might needed professional help, you know what was the answer? I was asked to snap out of it and everything is fine. Shortly after that, one fine night, I popped the pills. <br />
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Every time someone loss their fight to depression, I see people posting and saying that 'you should cherish the people around you because you never know when they're gonna go'. Question is: How many of you really do it? How many of you really saw the signs? Or is it during their final goodbye only you will realize that it is already too late?<br />
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<i>- jessism © 09072018:2132 - </i>~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-36859299235948109792015-06-30T00:36:00.000+08:002015-06-30T00:47:27.584+08:00What's Gay Marriage Got To Do (With You)?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgMHYAK4R6uJUtV-RXif5hKZAWxJ18mUueTc-sEmDZbp6FxSsjycDb6ah9l8R9bRsQIFxq9_ihNaEpl_rxy3TAAh36CJ1iKpw7XRFANtCGYQ9E9kMYGEEd-E2wc1QNKrn4rIHUf9w/s200/White+House+rainbow.jpg.CROP.promovar-mediumlarge.jpg" /></div><b>[NOTE: Please read the Disclaimer below before proceeding with the rest of this blog post's content.]</b><br />
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On June 26, the US Supreme Court ruled that same-sex couples in the United States are allowed to get married, making US the 17th country in the world to legalize gay marriage. <br />
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This news was widely celebrated by the LGBT community worldwide, as well as all those who support marriage equality. However, there are a minority few who seem to think that the ruling would somehow threatened the sanctity of their marriage, would turn their children gay, anger the Lord Almighty and is against the Bible's teaching, and worse: starting to boycott those who supports marriage equality and gay rights. <br />
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To all those haters out there, here's what I think: <br />
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Honestly, I don't see how two men or two women's marriage has anything to do with your marriage. Well, that is unless you somehow knew that your husband/wife is gay all along and he/she was forced to married you because of social pressure, and has gone on countless "fishing trips" with his/her "best friend" without their fishing rods <i>(ala "Brokeback Mountain")</i>, then I can see how that might be a problem for you. But your fear of losing your closeted husband/wife really has nothing to do with what other openly gay homosexual couple are allowed to do. I would really suggest you seek help from a marriage counsellor instead. <br />
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To those who felt that gay marriage would turn your children gay, you should really snap out of it. I'm gay. I'm surrounded by straight friends who had straight marriages but I still turn out to be gay. I've watched straight porn when I was a kid, and I can safely tell you, the sight of a woman's bouncing boobs or her dripping wet clitoris does not turn me on. It's like an anti-Viagra that worked so effectively, I could've sworn my penis shrunk a few millimeters at the sight of it. <i>(Which would explain why my size was previously below average. Thank goodness my boyfriend years later, who managed to fluff it back into shape, but that's a whole new story all together...)</i> We are gay because we are born that way. If you really wanted to do the finger pointing, maybe you should blame the straight couple who kept giving birth to us gorgeous, smart and talented gay children. <br />
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I think the worse of the haters out there are those self-righteous religion-crazed people, who judges others when they are taught not to, claiming that the Bible <i>(or the variation said religious book(s))</i> says that homosexuality is a sin and marriage is only for a non-homosexual man and a non-homosexual woman <i>(or something like that)</i>. The fact is, these people aren't listening to the most important thing that the God has been trying to tell them all these while: Everyone is created equal. <br />
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Although they kept insisting that the Holy Book mentioned that homosexuality is a sin, they seem to be forgetting that it also contain other verses that these people chose to downright ignore. Just to list a few: <br />
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- "If it is discovered that a bride is not a virgin, the Bible demands that she be executed by stoning immediately." <i>Deuteronomy 22:13-21</i><br />
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- "Divorce is strictly forbidden in both Testaments, as is remarriage of anyone who has been divorced." <i>Mark 10:1-12</i><br />
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- "If a man dies childless, his widow is ordered by biblical law to have intercourse with each of his brothers in turn until she bears her deceased husband a male heir." <i>Mark 12:18-27</i><br />
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- "Do not plant your field with two different kinds of seed. Do not wear clothing woven from two different kinds of thread." <i>Leviticus 19:19 </i><br />
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- "If a man sells his daughter as a female slave, she is not to go free as the male slaves do." <i>Exodus 21:7</i><br />
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- "You are to slaughter the young bull before the LORD...You are to skin the burnt offering and cut it into pieces...You are to wash the internal organs and the legs with water, and the priest is to burn all of it on the altar. It is a burnt offering, a food offering, an aroma pleasing to the LORD." <i>Leviticus 1:5-9</i> <br />
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We don't see these people speaking up about these issues above? Why are they so quiet about it? A lot of of my friends lost their virginity long way before their marriage, I don't see their husbands stoning them to death. People are still allowed to divorce, why didn't anyone do anything to revoke that law? Cause I know a few who are practicing the religion, claimed that they are staunch Christian who are very much against the gay community but they are already divorced, and living well. Does that make them a bunch of religiously blind hypocrites, or should be waiting for the day that God will smite them with His/Her wrath. Also, I don't see them influencing others to get a divorce. Those married couple around them still seem to be happily married. Why is that so? <br />
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I also have a friend whose husband had died in the most unfortunate circumstances, should I remind her that she needs to have sex with her brother-in-law until she's pregnant? Or how no burnt offerings that contains "aroma pleasing to the Lord" is being widely practice in the Christian community anymore. And even don't me started on how there are so few garments in the market these days that are made 100% of the same material! Even your underwear is a mesh of cotton with polyester, bamboo or whatever that is the latest in fabric technology.<br />
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As for those who wanted to boycott everything gay, I'd like to remind that you that computer science is developed by someone gay. So you're so very against it, you cut yourself away from all the technological gadgets and let's see how you're able to fit into the world today.<br />
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I guess at the end of the day, what I am trying to say is, we are we we are. You are who you are. We are not trying to change you, and we are certainly not going to change your children for any of the future generations into what they are not. They will be who they are destined to be. <br />
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We are all human beings who are already trying very hard to make it in this vast world. Struggling and going through different obstacles in each and every of our own life. Regardless of your belief or religion, it is God's given test to all of us to see how we make it in our own life. We are not taught to mind other people's business, and we are certainly not taught to judge others.<br />
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When someone makes it in life, you are happy for him/her. When we read in the news that something good happened to someone and they're happy, we are happy for them. So why can't you be happy for another just because he/she is LGBT? Just because you are miserable and had a miserable life doesn't mean that everyone else around you would have to go through and suffer the miserable life that you went through. Try to be happy for others for once, and you will find that the world is a much better place without hate, that you too will become a better person.<br />
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As Shakespeare once wrote, "There is nothing either good or bad, thinking makes it so." Think positively, and you shall live a positive life.<br />
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<i>- jessim © 30062015:0035 -</i>~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-50558204638881013282015-05-15T16:54:00.002+08:002015-05-15T16:54:49.735+08:00Lost CanadianSo I was on the bus today and there was an Asian lady <i>(probably in her late 40s)</i> who speaks badly broken English, asking everyone on the bus when her next stop is, every few minutes. When all the kind passengers on the bus tried to help her, she told everyone of them that she doesn't understand (any other languages except for English). And when someone who speaks English told her that the stop is still far away, she went on to ask another passenger like she didn't believe what the previous person said. This, I guess, kinda irked some of those who helped her, and soon enough, people just started to ignore her. <br />
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All she had was a phone in her hand and an address to SS21/50, which she had no idea where it is. (Don't ask me how she managed to board that bus in the first place.) I took my phone out and started to Google for the street that she mentioned. Turns out that street is just a 5 mins walk away from where I was heading to. So I tapped her on the shoulder and told her that the place is near where I was getting off and I could show her the way if she wanted to. She thanked me and yes. Of course, less than a minute later, she went on to ask another person if he knows where that place is.<br />
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Anyway, about 10mins later, we got off the bus and I told her to follow me <i>(while I follow my trusty GPS. xD)</i> <br />
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The lady told me that she just came from Canada a few days ago and she's here to visit a relative (or something like that). I don't know how true is this but she claimed that she would normally take a cab and wouldn't have to go through this much of a hassle in finding the place, and apologized to me for having to trouble me to bring her to where she wanted to go.<br />
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To thank me, she even gave me her number in Toronto and told me to call her if ever I'm going over, so that she can ask her son (who is supposedly around my age) to show me around. <i>(I was really tempted to ask her how her son looked like and if he's single. xD)</i><br />
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After she hung up, she asked me how far are we and I showed her the GPS tracking that we're just less than 5 minutes away. Still unwilling to trust me, she suggested that we should ask the people around here for directions and went directly towards a few teenagers standing at the sidewalk and asked them if they know where 21/50 is. <br />
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They spoke to her in Cantonese, asking her if there are any landmarks, and she gave them the same "I don't know what you're saying. I don't understand" reply. They looked at me and I told them that the lady is lost and she claimed that she don't understand Malay and Chinese. They shook their heads and the lady looked disappointed. I stood aside, waiting for her to ask a few other people before approaching her and showed her the GPS tracking, telling her that the place is just across the street, and finally, she reluctantly followed me. <br />
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Worried for my own safety as well, since this lady is acting all suspicious, when we were close enough to see the street name, I pointed the sign out to her and told her that since I don't know which house is she looking for, she should cross the road on her own and head to the house she is visiting.<br />
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I told her that she should call the person who contacted her earlier and tell the person to come out and greet her. She said she will and thanked me before I left. But as I was walking away, I caught a glimpse of her approaching another person...I guess she's just not trusting enough? Or maybe there's something else going on? Well, whatever it was, I hope she managed to get to wherever she's going to.~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-30570285389535943532015-05-10T14:33:00.001+08:002015-05-10T14:33:54.210+08:00Wonder Woman<p dir="ltr">Once upon a time, there used to be a beautiful girl with a lot of hopes and dreams. She was talented. She was good at what she does. </p>
<p dir="ltr">She was good with her hands. </p>
<p dir="ltr">She made beautiful clothes that made people look good. </p>
<p dir="ltr">She could've become a fashion designer. </p>
<p dir="ltr">But she didn't. </p>
<p dir="ltr">She got married.</p>
<p dir="ltr">She gave birth to two mischievous kids that turned her world upside down.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Although she stopped making beautiful clothes for people. She continued to make beautiful clothes, blankets, pencil cases, bedsheets, pillow cases, pajamas, and a lot of other beautiful things for her children (despite their constant complain about homemade items). </p>
<p dir="ltr">Little did she know that although they rarely told her that they like it, they loved it. </p>
<p dir="ltr">It was something special. One of a kind. </p>
<p dir="ltr">And mostly importantly: something they could brag about to --- their talented mother. </p>
<p dir="ltr">This girl, never became a renowned fashion designer. She's just an ordinary housewife. But an extraordinary mother: a wonder woman. </p>
<p dir="ltr">A wonder woman who despite her hardship still puts up the most beautiful smile.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Happy Mother's Day, my wonder woman. I'm not going to say I love you cause you already know that and already hear it all the time.</p>
<p dir="ltr">I wanna say thank you. Thank you for being you. For being that Wonder Woman who's always there for us. </p>
<p dir="ltr">And yes, I love you! </p>
~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-81128221212878439532015-03-30T14:11:00.000+08:002015-03-30T14:11:26.579+08:00Chinese New Year: PresentThe time of the year where children gets new clothes, adults get a personal loan. <br />
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Flash forward to the present: Kids nowadays are more materialistic because let's face it, Apple products aren't cheap!<br />
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Adults on the other hand are faced with the dilemma of whether to increase the content of the red packets. Why? Well, a tradition of well-wishes has now because a form of extortion, which (although unspoken, it kinda) translate to: Show me the money or I'll curse you for the rest of the year!<br />
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Yup, that's right folks. Kids now have the right to curse your marriage if you don't shower them with <strike>money</strike> love.<br />
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Unlike the good ol' days where kids are content with any amount they receive in those little red envelopes, modern-day kids are most likely to tear those things open in excitement and reveal its contents. When the amount is not what they expected it to be, say RM1, they will downright call you stingy and hope that the stingy bastard (meaning you) will have a bad year, or a bad marriage <i>(since those who are eligible to give red packets have to be married couple)</i>. Parents of those children are really not helping to ease the situation either. <br />
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<div align=center>"Since they only give my kid X amount this year, we should give them the same amount next year."</div>When kids receive their red packets, they are now told by their parents to write down the name of the person who gave the red packet to them on the red envelope itself. So that when their kids open the red packet, they will know how much their children receive from who? Then karma will be a bitch next year. ~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-9909857188185407122015-03-13T22:57:00.001+08:002015-03-13T23:04:32.843+08:00Chinese New Year: PastSo what <i>is</i> Chinese New Year and what's the fuss all about?<br />
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The beast, conveniently dubbed "<i>nian shou</i>", which literally means Annual Monster, was chased away using firecrackers. <br />
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A red packet, known as "<i>ya sui qian</i>", is given to children to congratulate them for making it through the year. Why red? Because the color red is a symbol of good luck. So you could say that it kinda translates to: "Congratulations for not getting eaten alive, you lucky bastard!"<br />
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As a thank-you for the red packets the adults showered them with, the children will in turn 'bless' the adult with well-wishes. Think of it as something like a spell, when a kid wishes you well, everything will be smooth flowing for the rest of the year. I'm not sure how many of those came true but more and more adults caught on and soon, everybody's doing it every year. <br />
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And so, it became a tradition which lasted until today.<br />
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<i>To be continued...<br />
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~*jessism © 20150312*~</i>~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-26093977278514025722015-02-24T23:10:00.002+08:002015-02-24T23:15:23.709+08:00Malaysian Airlines (MAS): Truly DangerousThe ground crew in Taipei was the most efficient bunch of people I've ever seen. Thinking that the flight back to Kuala Lumpur couldn't be as bad; I was proven otherwise. As if the scare of flying to Taipei wasn't bad enough, the flight back from Taipei to Kuala Lumpur was even worse! <br />
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First of all, the air steward on board was downright rude. Even at budget airlines, I have not seen an air steward who looked like we owed him money and boss the passengers around. Perhaps he was having a bad day, perhaps it was that time of the month for him, or perhaps he had tendered his resignation and decided that he doesn't care about his job anymore. But I certainly did not pay to get onboard and be treated like his bitch, or to look at him scowled at other passengers. Thank goodness this flight has in-flight entertainment that I could distract myself with. <br />
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Then there's a huge negligence of aircraft safety.<br />
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I am no expert in flying an aircraft but I do know a thing or two when it comes to safety. I know that it is important for the cabin lights to be dimmed when a plane take-off or land, especially at night. This is part of the many aircraft safety measures. However, this did not happen during my flight back from Taipei to Kuala Lumpur on 6 January. <br />
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As we were approaching Kuala Lumpur International Airport, there was a routine announcement of dimming the cabin lights and for the cabin crew to be seated for landing but the lights were never dimmed! It was bright as day in the cabin and before we knew it, the plane was plunging, there was a loud thud, the plane swerved a little, a few yelps of shocked was heard in the cabin, and when I looked out of the window, we were already on the runway!<br />
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This experience is downright unpleasant, especially coming from a carrier, which was supposed to have bucked up on their safety measures and servicing after those unfortunate events! My recent experience told me that someone is definitely sleeping on the job and is still not taking the necessary action to right the wrongs! If our flight were to have crashed that day and all the passengers were injured in some ways, who would they blame? The light switch malfunctioned? Or a poltergeist turned the lights backed on?<br />
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We're talking about a flying aluminum tube with hundreds of lives onboard, who paid good money to get to where they needed to go and is hoping reach their destination safely! Both mentally and physically! And yet, these people at the Malaysian Airlines (MAS) are showing no effort of improving at all and are treating our lives like a cheap joke!<br />
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For those who are wondering why am I ranting about all these on my blog, which quite possibly has no view at all, instead of writing to MAS directly, you'll be surprise to know that if you pay a visit to their website, there is NO PLACE for you to file your complains (if any). <br />
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Even if this was submitted to them, I can foresee that there is a very high chance, I will not even hear back from them. So why bother when I can at least attempt to warn everyone else across the globe? Of course, if someone from MAS happens to see this, even better! I sure would love to hear how they are going to spin this one or compensate me for the mental torture they put me through!<br />
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<i>~ © 20150115/20150224 ~</i>~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-23321236194302026632015-02-23T13:54:00.000+08:002015-02-24T23:12:09.037+08:00Trust in Malaysian Airlines (MAS)?!With the list of air disasters which happened to Malaysian Airlines in 2014, one would expect the airline company to take a long hard look at the corporation and start to buck up on its air crafts' service and maintenance. Are they really doing it?<br />
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With the mysterious disappearance of MH370 and the ill-fated MH17, one would have expected Malaysian Airlines (MAS) to buck up on its air crafts' service and maintenance and improve on their services, so that they could regain the confidence of all flyers across the globe. But the question is: Are they really taking it seriously?<br />
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Trusting that the Malaysian national carrier has got to be better than what the public generally said them to be after the two unfortunate incident, I booked a two-way flight to Taiwan on MAS for my year-end trip. Let's just say that I regretted it the moment I boarded the flight. <br />
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On 24 December 2014, I headed to KLIA to catch the red eye flight to Taipei, Taiwan. It was Christmas Eve and everybody was in a festive mood. Needless to say, the passenger were all smiley and happy and can’t wait to get on the flight. <br />
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First of all the flight was late. It wasn't delayed for hours, just a 15-20mins late in arrival and boarding. Taking the prep work needed to get the aircraft ready for a 5 hours flight into consideration, I think a 15mins delay is still acceptable, for me at least. <br />
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However, when I boarded the flight, I really couldn't believe my eyes! For a quick few seconds, I thought I have boarded a local budget airline for a domestic flight, although I clearly paid for something far better. The aircraft looked cramped and there were clearly NO in-flight entertainment unit instilled! <br />
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Ok, so maybe I was expecting too much. It has been almost 6-7 years since my MAS flight to Melbourne. But clearly, I wasn't the only one who was surprised by the condition. I overheard a family which was filing into the aircraft trying to find their seats commenting on why there is no "TV" available at all the seats. The same question which crossed my mind!<br />
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While waiting for the flight to take off, I heard one of the impatient passengers asked the air steward why there are no in-flight entertainment units available, which the steward explained that our plane was "switched" last minute due to some unforeseen circumstances and he is sorry for the inconvenience caused. <br />
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So you would think that this is a fair enough explanation, right? I mean, MAS is doing their job and getting their passengers on a safer craft. This should be something to applauded, right? Wrong. <br />
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As we waited for the flight to take off, nothing happened. Moments later, the captain came on to announce that we are having some technical problem and it will take awhile longer before we could take off. <br />
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Really?! Even after switching from an aircraft that (I assume) is supposed to provide better comfort for the passengers to a lighter aircraft that does not even have an in-flight entertainment unit and is supposedly NOT suffering from any "unforeseen circumstances", the aircraft is STILL having technical problems when it comes to taking off?!! This is the point that I started to question how often they run their service maintenance on all the aircraft! <br />
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In my head, the worse scenes from a lot of disaster movies are playing in a loop! What a way to treat your passengers on Christmas night! Good job MAS!!! The only thing I hoped during that whole flight was to reach Taipei safely and to be able to tell my mom, who warned me so much about flying with MAS, that I have arrived safely and I was wrong.<br />
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As if the scare of flying to Taipei wasn't bad enough, the flight back from Taipei to Kuala Lumpur was even worse! <br />
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<i>~ © 20150115 ~</i>~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-43578443614117986152014-11-20T13:28:00.002+08:002014-11-20T13:30:30.979+08:00TabooMaking headlines today is the news on Kedah government's decision to increase the number of words, which non-muslim are NOT ALLOWED to use, from 24 to 55.<br />
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The 55 words are: Masjid, Surau, Mussala, Musabaqah, Zakat Fitrah、Ulama, Syariah、Akhirat, Baitullah, Allah, Firman Allah, Hadis, Kaabah, Kadi, Ibadah, Wali, Azan, As-sunnah, Mubaligh, Qibiat, Haji, Hajjah, Mufti, Rasul, Quran, Sheikh, Karamah, Tabligh Aulia' Solat, Khalifah, Khutbah, Fatwa Iman Dakwah, Nabi, Shahadah, Lillahi, Wahyu, Subhanallah, Allahu akbar, Walillahihamd, Alhamulilah, Insyaallah, Wallahi, Lailahaillallah, Masyaallah, Wabillahi, Watallahi, Assalamualaikum, Auzubillahi, Astagfirullahal azim, Aahaula walaquata Illabillahilaiyil azim. <i>(By listing them out, does this mean I should be prosecuted under the sedition act now?)</i><br />
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Apparently 24 out of the 55 were already taboo since 1988! Even more shockingly, we are still being taught to use those words! Yes, it's in our text book, it's in the street names, it's everywhere we go!<br />
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Does this mean that when a non-muslim is being asked what is a "that" <i>(a certain person points to a mosque)</i>, non-muslim are ALLOWED to use 'descriptive words' such as "a big onion-building where muslim prays"? Wouldn't that be far more offensive than just using the word "Masjid"?<br />
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At this day and age, where racial harmony SHOULD be promoted in the country to encourage the understanding of each other's culture instead of widening the racial divide, I can't believe that the government would move to do something that is so downright stupid!<br />
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I studied in a Malay school when I was young, and it was THE BEST schooling experience I've ever had! In a class where there are only four Chinese students, my Malay classmates were very helpful and taught us a lot about their religion. The way how certain Malay words <i>(like Assalamualaikum, Insyaallah, etc.)</i> work, and taught us how to use them as well. We learn about their culture, they learn about our believes; the Ustaz sometimes allowed us to sit in his Agama classes when our Moral Studies teacher doesn't show up, which is almost every class. The Ustaz gave us the chance to learn even more about the religion and to us, it was an amazing experience that (I believe) not many non-muslims would get the chance to experience.<br />
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Although I'm a non-muslim, to this day, I still using phrases like: "Ya Allah", "Insyaallah", and "Astagfirullahal azim". To my "non-muslim" friends, they felt that it's kinda cool that I know those words and would sometimes ask me what those words meant, like how I used to ask my Malay friends in school. To me, that's a great way for others to learn more about another culture and I see no harm in it.<br />
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Our government is constantly saying that our country is slowly being "Westernized" and yet, nothing is done to 'encourage' racial harmony. If we are 'encouraged' to use those words instead of limiting it to just a certain crowd, maybe some day in the future when someone sneezes, our children might be uttering phases like "Astagfirullahal azim" instead of the common "God bless".~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-76397273714630910242014-09-24T21:49:00.000+08:002014-09-24T21:49:28.639+08:00Malaysia Taxi ScareSo the Malaysian authorities are claiming that our "licensed taxis" are the safest? Here's what happened to me today...<br />
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I got on a cab from 1U this morning wanting to head to Sunway Giza for my doctor's appointment. As the cabs there are all queue based, I hopped on the next available cab when my turn comes.<br />
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The cab started to drive off the minute I got in, and I told the driver I wanted to go to Sunway Giza. The uncle turned around and asked me, "Which part of Sunway Giza?" to which I said "Giza Mall", since it's the closest to my doctor's office.<br />
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The he then turn to me and asked, "where is that?", which at this point I thought that this going to be another one of those drivers who wanted to make a detour. "The one near Kota Damansara?" Then the driver told me, "15 Ringgit."<br />
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"Excuse me?"<br />
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"The traffic there very jam right now. If you want to go there, RM15."<br />
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"Then it's fine. Just stop here and I'll get another cab." In an aggravated tone, the driver yelled at me, "No! You wanna go there then it's RM15!"<br />
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At this point, I said to him sternly, "Stop the car. I want to get out." The driver pretended that he didn't hear me and continued to drive. When I repeated myself, he continued to ignore me.<br />
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While the vehicle was moving, I opened the car door, and it was then that I got his attention. He ACCELERATED and told me in a pissed tone, "Ok ok ok, go by meter" and when I close the door, he had the central lock on. Probably to ensure I can't open the door again?<br />
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He then started speeding (since there wasn't any jam at all along the way, unlike what he predicted), and was cursing all along the way, mumbling that I was "lansi", that I could afford to take a cab but not willing to pay a measly RM15. I was really scared for my life. Part of me wanted to tell him to stop, but I'm also worried that if I ask him to stop again, he might pull another crazy stunt like accelerating even faster and kill of us, or hit me with a bat, or some shit like that. The calm side of me tells me that we're just less than 5 minutes away from my doctor's office, and I took out my phone, ready to call for help.<br />
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When we were around Pelangi Condominium, the driver suddenly stopped mumbling and shouted at me, "Where? How to go? You so clever, you show me the way."<br />
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I took a deep breathe and asked him to go straight, and immediately after the traffic light to turn to Palm Spring Damansara, I asked him to turn right to where the office blocks are instead of going further to where the mall is. The driver continued to mumble as he drove.<br />
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As we turned into the office area, I told him the mall is at the far end and I want to get off right where we are, and even told him (as though he really don't know the way) that it's easier for him to make a U-turn to get out of the area.<br />
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Thank all the forces at work for helping, the driver stopped without arguing, i gave him an exact fare, the minute I heard the central lock unlocks, I quickly got out of the car and dashed towards civilization.<br />
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Fuck all you fuckers who said that "only licensed taxis are save"!!! <br />
FUCK YOU!!!!~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-81534569176057702902014-06-26T00:30:00.001+08:002014-06-26T00:30:37.719+08:00Forgive & Forget<p dir="ltr">My mom tells me that I should forgive and forget. "I might be able to forgive but I will never forget," I replied.</p>
<p dir="ltr">How do you forget someone who physically assault your mother, your brother and yourself when you were young? Or the time he slapped you and you fell off a stool even though you did nothing wrong, and the reason he hit you was because you shouldn't be left "left out" when your brother is being disciplined for something he done wrong? </p>
<p dir="ltr">How about the time he hit your mother until she knocked herself on a cupboard, fainted, while he casually walked out of the house to have a cigarette, leaving you and your younger brother who were still in primary school at home with her unresponsive body and thinking that she was dead?</p>
<p dir="ltr">Maybe my memory could be wrong since those incidents happened so long ago when I was young... </p>
<p dir="ltr">When I graduated from middle school, I was told to get a job because he is planning keeping all his savings for my younger brother "in case he wanted to go to college with his friends". Or the time I was asked to leave the house because if I wanted to study, I should go find a way myself. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Ok, so maybe I could still be wrong, and some of your might consider it sibling envy...</p>
<p dir="ltr">Flash forward to the present: How about the time he accused you and your mother of plotting to steal his mother's inheritance while she's still alive, and lifted a wooden stool trying to whack you with it because you hold proof that one of his family member had already stole all the money in his mother's saving instead?  </p>
<p dir="ltr">Or the Chinese New Year where he tells you that his ONLY SON is living overseas and there are "no other relatives" he can depend on in Malaysia other than his sister and asked you to "stay out" and "stop meddling" with his "family affairs"?</p>
<p dir="ltr">Call me ungrateful or vengeful if you like but after all these years, I really don't believe in "forgive and forget", and I guess I never will.</p>
~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-72068347748384428542014-06-08T09:37:00.000+08:002014-06-08T09:37:42.784+08:00X-Rants: Pos-X-ibilitiesSo Mystique was supposed to assassinate Senator Kelly in the original storyline but since Bryan Singer killed Senator Kelly off in "X-Men" -- transformed into a mutant by Magneto and turned into a pile of slime in front of Storm --- the person Mystique is supposed to assassinate is replaced by Bolivar Trask. I know Trask appeared in "The Last Stand" but like I said in my earlier post, the damage done by Brett Ratner is not part of this timeline so... forget Bill Duke. Anyway, as most fans would have already known, whilst creating the Sentinels, Trask also created Master Mold, the only Sentinel with the ability to speak. With the introduction of Trask and those anorexic super-Sentinels, perhaps Bryan Singer might be doing one with an anorexic Master Mold in the future?<br />
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<i>"Captain America: The Winter Soilder</i></div><br />
Those of you saw the end credits to "Captain America: The Winter Soilders" would have already seen Quicksilver and his twin sister <i>(Wanda/Scarlet Witch)</i>, which both are set to appear in next year's "Avengers: Age of Ultron". <br />
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In "Days of Future Past", Quicksilver made a quick less-than-15-minutes appearance. <i>(Known in the movie as Peter Maximoff.)</i> While rescuing Magneto from prison, Peter mentioned that his mother "used to know" someone who has the same abilities, little did he know that Magneto actually <i>is</i> his father. I really love to see how future movies are going to deal with this, since rights to "Avengers" and "X-Men" are currently being held by different studios and Quicksilver is played by different actors. Also, now that Bryan Singer has set such a high standard for the character <i>(which is already gaining praises and a growing fan base)</i>, one could only hope that Joss Whedon does the character justice or he's gonna get badly trashed.<br />
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<i>"Days of Future Past"</i></div><br />
In the "Days of Future Past", Peter was shown sitting with a little girl, while they watch Magneto wreck the White House on TV and almost killing Nixon. Now, we all know that the girl couldn't possibly be Wanda because she is supposed to be his twin. Could she be some random kid, or is the girl Bryan Singer's idea of introducing an alternate Wanda? <br />
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Havok, who was first featured in "First Class", returns in a scene where Mystique rescues a group of mutants from a military camp, which was shown in "Days of Future Past" as well as the post-credit scene in "The Amazing Spider-Man 2".<br />
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<i>Havok in "Days of Future Past"</i></div><br />
Who is Havok? His name is Alexander Summers. He is also the younger brother of Scott Summers (Cyclops). As the rescue scene in "First Class" and "Days of Future Past" was set in the 70s and Cyclops doesn't come along for at least another 20 years, let's hope that they don't try to turn Havok into his father. However, if this character were to be adapted as Cyclops' <i>elder</i> brother instead then that would be a whole different ball game. With two out of three of the Summers brothers introduced, this will open up possibilities for a spin-off storyline on the Shi'ar Empire, which would play out very well should Bryan Singer decided to tell the accurate version of the "Phoenix Saga". <i>(Again, not the load of crap Brett Ratner fed us in "The Last Stand".)</i><br />
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<i>Blink in "Days of Future Past"</i></div><br />
Blink, who should be playing a major role in "Age of Apocalypse", is also introduced in "Days of Future Past". <i>(I say "should" cause for all we know Bryan Singer might replace her character's story with Wolverine again and make the "Age of Apocalypse" another Wolverine-centered movie!)</i> Apart from the Apocalypse arc, Blink also has a role to play in the "Phalanx Covenant". With actress Fan Bing Bing's five-movie deal with the studio, return of Havok and Cyclops revived, looks like there might be a high chance that the "Phalanx Covenant" will be adapted for the big screen. Of course, that would also mean a high possibility for the return of the Phoenix! If we will be seeing more of the Phoenix, does this mean that Bryan Singer will retell the "Phoenix Saga" now that he has given a middle finger to "The Last Stand"? <i>(Yes, I know the possibility of them retelling the "Phoenix Saga" is super slim but I just can't let this go! It really sucks to see the whole Phoenix arc getting screwed over by Ratner and gang!)</i><br />
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<i>"Day of Future Past" Post credit scene</i></div><br />
At the end of the movie, we see that a pyramid, which supposedly holds the Lazarus Chamber, is being built by En Sabah Nur <i>(you can hear his name being chanted by the worshipers)</i> and the four horsemen of Apocalypse is shown at a distance. In the comics and animated series, we know that the horsemen are mutants Apocalypse "recuits" to serve him. A few notable horsemen include Angel (Warren Worthington), Mr. Sinister, Cyclops and even Wolverine! Will Bryan Singer put Wolverine up to the task again? Since he can regenerate and regain his memories at the end of the battle and all that shit. <i>(~*roll eyes*~)</i> Or will Mr. Sinister be introduced as one of the horsemen?<br />
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Everything is doned with a fresh start after the events in "Days of Future Past" and I guess it's safe to say that things are finally back to "normal" after the damage done by Ratner and gang were undone. Jean Grey and Cyclops are back together, Kelsey Grammer is blue again, and Kitty Pryde is hinted to be together with Colossus, instead of having another <i>'X-Men On Ice'</i> moment with Bobby Drake. With Channing Tatum recently cast as Gambit and the Four Horsemen introduced, does this mean that we're finally going to see the death of Iceman and Gambit could finally get together with Rogue?! OMFG, yay!!!!<br />
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The one and only shot with Rogue in "Days of Future Past"</i></div><br />
Speaking of Rogue, Anna Paquin's name was shown in the end credits but Rogue was nowhere to be seen throughout the movie. Apparently her scenes were snipped to ease the flow but you could still catch a glimpse of her in a shot towards the end of the movie getting together with Bobby Drake. Well, let's just say that she's like Winona Ryder in "Star Trek", only with lesser screen time.~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-63925342206979383602014-06-04T15:05:00.002+08:002014-06-06T10:43:30.503+08:00X-Rants: Disasstisfa-X-tion<i>It's the mutant version of "Avengers", where Wolverine joins the X-Men to save the world, while a bunch of unknown mutants (and Storm) get squashed by a bunch of anorexic Sentinels!</i><br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEinQvFF_1E30vjsswLeCdw-rdAS-2cZGyrFFr6DLO7AXgj0V29lCHk4635wn7pbMyjnwREcg4B1xfTfeZ77zJrAZasPRd4gK8IJoceNSKR_TxqMteKYixmdTJaHOvdV1TEjyD3Bcw/s200/DOFP.jpg" /></div>For those of you who have never read the comics and/or watched the animated series, the recent big screen release of "Days of Future Past" must be like an orgasmic experience to be able to see all your favorite mutants being revived <i>(since that asshole Brett Ratner already killed most of them in "The Last Stand")</i> and coming together like the "Avengers".<br />
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I can also understand why all comic book fans are cheering because Bryan Singer really gave a huge <b>FUCK-YOU</b> to those who screwed up the "Phoenix Saga", wiped everything clean and start over again. <br />
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So forget what you saw in "The Last Stand" and think of it as the movie chronology to be: "X-Men", "X2", "First Class", then "Days of Future Past".<br />
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<i>(Spoilers ahead. You've been warned. Read at your own risk!)</i><br />
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The "Days of Future Past" supposedly tells the story of a dark future where the X-Men has fallen, the Sentinels has taken over and Showdowcat <i>(better known as Kitty Pryde when she was young)</i> is sent back to the past by Rachel Summers to prevent Mystique from assassinating Senator Robert Kelly and change the existing future.<br />
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Who is Rachel Summers? She is the daughter of Jean Grey and Scott Summers (Cyclops), who possesses the ability to manipulate time and temporarily transport a person's mind through time into a younger/older version/descendant/etc of themselves.<br />
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<i>Rachel Summers</i></div><br />
Now, considering Kitty Pryde was still a teenager when her character was introduced into the movie franchise, sending her back in time would, well, turn her into a sperm (or sort), right? So who should they send? Instead of going for the animated version where Bishop is sent back in time using a time machine, Bryan Singer decided to send his favorite X-Men, Wolverine, back! But just to pay homage to the alternate version, they decided to dump Bishop in the movie just for the heck of it! <i>(I'm sure a lot of those moviegoers are probably wondering who the fuck is Bishop by now.)</i><br />
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<i>Bishop</i></div><br />
Since the movie is set in a future where Rachel doesn't exist, <i>(and it's also easier to use a ready-have character than to introduce a new one)</i>, who do they use to replace Rachel? Kitty Pryde! But hang on a sec, Kitty Pryde only has the ability to phase in the first two <i>X-Men</i> movies. How and where did she get the ability to chronoskim another X-Men back into the past? Well, I bet the audience don't know and didn't care much because, let's admit it, Wolverine sells! That's all that matters, right? <br />
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But just to avoid making "Days of Future Past" look too much like a Wolverine-centered movie, they decided to throw in a few other mutants whose name the audiences probably wouldn't even know/remember and wouldn't even care even if they got killed by the Sentinels! <i>(Yay~!)</i><br />
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It was at that point, <i>(well, actually shortly after I saw Hugh Jackman's butt)</i> that I stop caring and don't give two hoots anymore. <br />
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Ok, so how does the timeline works? If you noticed, no exact timeline was really given. In "X-Men", it was said the events took place in the "not too distant future". In "Days of Future Past" when Wolverine wanted to make the 'jump', it was mentioned that he's going back "50 years". Since "First Class" was set in the 60s(?), Magneto is still being held when Wolverine jumps back and Nixon is still the president, so we can safely say that the past is set somewhere around 1969 to 1974. I understand the need to push the past further from the original storyline, since they wanted to align the story with the events that happened in "First Class" but why does the future looks so far ahead? <br />
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<i>Anorexic Sentinels?! Seriously!?! </i></div><br />
What ticks me off the most <i>(other than the Wolverine-centered theme)</i> was how Xavier looks like he hasn't aged a day!!! Is he on botox or some shit like that?! I mean, heck, he looked much older when Wolverine jumped back to the future at the end of the movie, how the fuck did he managed to look so young in the screwed-up future?! Do they have like some energy drink that doesn't exist if the Sentinels weren't created?! If he's using it, why the fuck isn't he sharing it with Magneto?! The guy looked like he could really use some!<br />
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<i>(To be continued...)</i>~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-20550060825501498842014-01-09T17:19:00.000+08:002014-01-09T17:19:58.728+08:00My Malaysia<i>Back when I was in school. I was proud and happy to be able to learn a lot of "catch phrases" (that soon became my pet phrases) from my Malay friends. Today, it's no longer about being who we are as Malaysians. It's all about racial segregation. We have so many laws and regulations that are restricting us from being the multicultural country that we are, that we could no longer enjoy the best of every colorful races around us. </i><br />
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I came from a Malay dominance <i>kampung</i>, where there are only four Chinese families in the whole <i>taman</i>. I grew up playing with my neighbors who are all Malays. We played in the paddy fields, climbed trees and even played soccer together. When it comes to the festive season, our neighbors would give us <i>kuih raya</i> and we would give them Chinese New Year cookies and cakes that my mom bakes. (This cookie-exchanging tradition still goes on today.) They don't ask us whether it is <i>halal</i>, because we know better than to give them something that is laced with pork-based oil. This is just common sense of respect towards each other. <br />
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Of course, kids being kids, there will always be times when we don't get along and fought with our neighbor's kids. That is when the name calling starts and the Malay kids would call us "Cina Babi" <i>(Chinese pigs)</i> and we would call them "Hua-na kao" <i>('Malay dogs' in hokkien)</i>. What got us was a good slap (and sometimes caning) from our parents and we are forced to apologize to each other in our parents' presence. The next day? We forget about our bickering and heads out for another round of soccer.<br />
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When I started studying in a Malay school, there were only four Chinese students in our class of 36 and I was the class monitor back then (voted by my Malay classmates). The most memorable thing in school was when me and three other of my Chinese classmates were allowed to sit in an Agama (Malay religious teachings) Class conducted by an old Ustaz. This was made possible because, honestly, the teacher for Morale Studies is CONSTANTLY "absent" <i>(skipping class to be exact)</i>. It was then that the Ustaz gave us permission to sit in for his classes and allowed us to ask questions relevant to his class for the day. <br />
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I don't know about my other Chinese friends but I find the classes very informative. Whenever we asked a stupid question about the Islamic religion, the Ustaz gave the class a chance to answer our question before he gave us a proper explanation. It was a great learning experience for both us and our Malay classmates. I have to admit that I feel he sort of dumb-down the class down for us every time we join so that we can participate in his teaching for the day, and to be honest, we really enjoyed it! (Maybe it's because we don't have to sit for the exams but still, it was a good experience.)<br />
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Our Malay classmates would laugh and picked on our Chinese way of speaking the Malay language from time to time, but after the laughter dies down, they would usually teach us the right way of using/saying certain phrases (that soon became my pet phrases). It was then that they taught us all sort of "catch phrases", which they would use from time to time, so that we could speak better Malay. Arguments and (Sometimes) disagreements with my Malay classmates aside, I was and proud to have such great classmates, who taught us a lot. <br />
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To me, the best part of being Malaysians is to be able to be a part of such a great and colorful multiracial country, where we can learn so much from each other and be a part of an understanding community. However, today Malaysia has became a country where certain minority races are being scrutinized for questioning things that they don't understand. Opinions are considered seditious in a supposedly democratic country. Our supposed harmony is constantly divided by certain political parties, which kept on drawing more and more lines as they like to their benefit, to remind us how we are different from each other. A lot of traditional practices and historical places were being scraped in the name of modernization. History books have been rewritten to fit the likings and benefits certain parties. <br />
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Today, it's no longer about culture or racial harmony. It's more about who has the power to change and bend the rules to their likings. Where is our country heading to? I'm not sure. All I do know is: We are definitely not moving forward.<br />
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No, not <i>fuck</i> but <i>"mindfuck"</i>. <br />
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Mindfucking movies <I>(I really didn't make this phrase up, I swear!)</i>, are movies that usually leads to an ending that is at first glance completely unexpected or contradictory, but is coherent and reasonable given hindsight and careful observation of the clues presented.<br />
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A classic example would be that of M.Night Shyala-mala-something's Academy Award-winning movie "The Sixth Sense", where the movie which supposedly told the story of a boy who sees dead people, being aided by a phyciatrist to help him better understand his "gift", turns out to be the "dead" that the boy is seeing throughout the whole movie. <br />
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Two years after the release of "Shutter Island" and all the raving reviews I have been hearing about it, I finally watched the movie today. <br />
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<div><iframe width="410" height="200" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/5iaYLCiq5RM" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe></div>Now, I know I am going to pissed a lot of people who love the movie off by saying this but...here goes: Despite several obvious appearance of a fake backdrop, the plot set-up for "Shutter Island" is good but I am just not buying any of it. Yes, Martin Scorsese is a great director but sorry guys, I don't like the movie. Yes, Leo DiCaprio is a magnificent actor and good at what he does but again, I'm still not buying it. I'm sorry. "Shutter Island" just didn't give me the <i>kick</i> I was looking for. Perhaps Christopher Nolan raised the bar a tad bit too high for viewers who liked to be mindfucked? <br />
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Here are a list of mindfuckers that I find to be a good watch if you wanted to stretch your mind-muscle:<br />
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<b>10. Down With Love</b><br />
<div><iframe width="410" height="200" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/5megJgs48vI" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe></div><b>Cast:</b> Ewan McGregor, Renée Zellweger<br />
<b>Plot:</b> Set in the 50s, a woman who advocates female independence combats with a male chauvinist who is trying hard to gain her attention. <br />
<b>Remarks:</b> No, this is not an error by mistake. I know this is a romantic comedy, which literally doesn't take itself seriously but I just can't get wipe the look on Ewan McGregor's face off my mind when Renée told him about the twist. <I>(Ok fine, I was just horsing around with this one, let me start over...)</i><br />
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<b>10. Identity</b><br />
<div><iframe width="410" height="200" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/_pbmcgdWE-0" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe></div><b>Cast:</b> John Cusack, Ray Liotta, Amanda Peet, Alfred Molina, Clea DuVall<br />
<b>Plot:</b> A group of 10 strangers find themselves stranded in the middle of a storm in a remote motel. As the group prepares to spend the night, they quickly find that there is an unknown murderer present, killing off each of the guests, one at a time...<br />
<b>Remarks:</b> The most interesting part about a whodunit is to guess who the killer really is. And I had a great time trying to guessing each and every character's motive each kill, until... <br />
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<b>09. Stay</b><br />
<div><iframe width="410" height="200" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/L6GGsl6XUNU" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe></div><b>Cast:</b> Ryan Gosliing, Naomi Watts, Ewan McGregor<br />
<b>Plot:</b> A psychiatrist attempts to prevent a college student from killing himself in three days. However, after his first encouter with the disturbed young man, he finds himself losing his own grip on reality.<br />
<b>Remarks:</b> To be honest, I got this movie just because Ryan Gosling was in it. Then it happened; Although the movie started off slow, every thing really just doesn't seem to make sense anymore, making you doubt who and what is real.<br />
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<b>08. The Awakening</b><br />
<div><iframe width="410" height="200" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/R8_jYZKteWs" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe></div><b>Cast:</b> Rebecca Hall, Dominic West, Imelda Staunton<br />
<b>Plot:</b> A published author on supernatural hoaxes, who works with the police to expose charlatans and debunk supernatural phenomenon, travels to a boarding school after receiving a request to investigate the recent death of a student and how it is related to sightings of a ghost of a child. Insisitng that the ghostly sightings are at first thought to be a prank played by one of the boys at the school, the author soon finds herself surrounded by unexplained supernatural events.<br />
<b>Remarks:</b> I really had no idea what I was in for when I watch "The Awakening". There a few predictable scare-tactics and I could certainly do without some of the nudity but overall, "The Awakening" is a good watch even though I didn't really quite like the ending.<br />
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<b>07. Se7en</b><br />
<div><iframe width="410" height="200" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/J4YV2_TcCoE" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe></div><b>Cast:</b> Brad Pitt, Morgan Freeman, Kevin Spacey, Gwyneth Paltrow<br />
<b>Plot:</b> The newly-transferred detective and the soon-to-retire veteran become deeply involved in the case of a sadistic serial killer, where each meticulously-planned murder corresponds to one of the seven deadly sins: gluttony, greed, sloth, wrath, pride, lust, and envy.<br />
<b>Remarks:</b> This is not as much as a mindfuck it is as a "connect-the-dots movie". The death in the movie are as violent and brutal as it can get. Knowing that allthe killings are related to the seven sins, I can't help but wonder throughout the movie, how the next person is going to die until it hit me hard at the grand finale. <br />
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<b>06. The Prestige</b><br />
<div><iframe width="410" height="200" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/FdRn2UNTRgg" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe></div><b>Cast:</b> Hugh Jackman, Christian Bale, Michael Caine, Scarlett Johansson, David Bowie. Andy Serkis, Piper Perabo<br />
<b>Plot:</b> Adapted from a 1995 novel of the same name, "The Prestige" follows Robert Angier and Alfred Borden, rival stage magicians in London at the end of the 19th century. Obsessed with creating the best stage illusion, they engage in competitive one-upmanship with tragic results.<br />
<b>Remarks:</b> Christopher Nolan really knows how to mess with your head. It's true! Even though this movie was adapted from a novel, Nolan managed to to turn it into a well-executed exercise for the brain.<br />
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<b>05. The Sixth Sense</b><br />
<div><iframe width="410" height="200" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/lXO0he1WjYw" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe></div><b>Cast:</b> Bruce Willis, Haley Joel Osment, Toni Collette<br />
<b>Plot:</b> "The Sixth Sense" tells the story of Cole Sear, a troubled, isolated boy who is able to see and talk to the dead, and an equally troubled child psychologist who tries to help him. <br />
<b>Remarks:</b> He sees dead people. So can I. But I don't see anyone making any movie about me. Ramblings aside, this movie is definitely well executed. Although it can be slow and chatty, M. Night <strike>Shaylamalan</strike> <strike>Shyamalaman</strike> <i>(I give up!)</i> managed to cleverly hide the hints that is dead obvious in the movie, indirectly making most audiences <i>(me included)</i> go, "How can I not see that coming?!"<br />
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<b>04. The Others</b><br />
<div><iframe width="410" height="200" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/2YQotG1UZ0Y" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe></div><b>Cast:</b> Nicole Kidman, Alakina Mann, James Bentley<br />
<b>Plot:</b> Grace Stewart is a Catholic mother who lives with her two children in a remote country house. As her son and daughter both contracted an uncommon disease, their lives are structed around a series of complex rules designed to protect them.<br />
<b>Remarks:</b> "The Others" make you look at things different, especially on things that goes bump in the night. This winner of Best Horror Film in 2001, puts one's religious believes is put to the test, making you think if you what see if actually real. <br />
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<b>03. Dogville</b><br />
<div><iframe width="410" height="200" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/eQfteJg5rDU" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe></div><b>Cast:</b> John Hurt, Nicole Kidman, Paul Bettany, Stellan Skarsgård, James Caan<br />
<b>Plot:</b> A woman hiding from mobsters, arrives in the small mountain town of Dogville, and is provided refuge in return for physical labor. Her stay there ultimately changes the lives of the local people and the town in many ways.<br />
<b>Remarks:</b> Despite being shot on a sparsely dressed sound stage, "Dogville" really scares me. For the first time ever, a movie actually makes me feel evil. Not only do I want everybody dead, all I can think of in my head was to have everyone die a violent death...and if possible, in the worse way possible.<br />
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<b>02. Inception</b><br />
<div><iframe width="410" height="200" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/1g4PLj0PlOM" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe></div><b>Cast:</b> Leonardo DiCaprio, Ken Watanabe, Joseph Gordon-Levitt, Cillian Murphy, Michael Caine<br />
<b>Plot:</b> Cobb, a corporate spy, whose work consists of secretly extracting valuable commercial information from the unconscious minds of his targets while they dream, is Wanted for murder and unable to visit his children. He is offered a chance to regain his old life as payment for a task considered to be impossible: "Inception", the implantation of an original idea into a target's subconscious.<br />
<b>Remarks:</b> If you wanted to exercise your brain, this night jsut be the movie you need. Although the movie is repsented in a very direct and straight-in-your-face manner, you really can't help but wonder what just happened. Did the top ever stop spinning in your version?<br />
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<b>01. Mulholland Drive</b><br />
<div><iframe width="410" height="200" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/7KgH9n1c4mM" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe></div><b>Cast:</b> Justin Theroux, Naomi Watts, Laura Harring<br />
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<b>Remarks:</b> To be honest, I am still trying to figure this one out. David Lynch really fucked with my mind big time with this one, especially that explicit lesbian sex scene. WOW! >.<
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Before I end this post, I would like to apologise to most of the cult fanatics out there, who are probably going to send me hate mails for not mentioning other great mindfuckers like "Donnie Darko" or "Fight Club" or "El Orfanato (The Orphanage)" or "Pan's Labyrinth" or "Memento", or "Abre Los Ojos (Open Your Eyes)" <i>[American remake: "Vanilla Sky"]</i>......<br />
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What is your best mindfuck movie exprience? Do leave a comment, share your experience and recommendations... =)~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-88730942908117331082012-03-04T15:06:00.001+08:002015-02-23T13:46:29.188+08:00Boyfriend Material...Not!After living with my housemate for the past three years, we finally had the time to have a one-on-one talk yesterday. <br />
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During the conversation, he seemed concerned about my non-existing relationship life and how weird it seems for me to be surrounded by so many people, which seemed potentially available, yet I am still single. <br />
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It seems that being gay doesn’t seem as easy as one would think it to be for me. Despite for being the social butterfly of the group, where everyone thought that I would be going out on dates with every Tom, Dick and Harry, I am in fact still single and very much available for the past four and a half years. <i>(Yes, don't believe everything your hear down the grapevine!)</i><br />
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After breaking up with Kenny in 2007, I was unable to find someone who could give me the sense of familiarity that I once had with him. By the time I finally got over the fact that no two person is the same, a year later, I had already seen too much and absorbed too much negativity in me. <br />
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First of all, there are those who will flirt with you despite the fact that they are already attached. Then there are those who would use their looks to get in bed with every living being that they could lay their hands on. Oh, let's not forget those who would pretend to be sick, troubled or sad, so that the world would take notice of them. Then of course, the worse are those who would use the person who likes them to do their dirty work and sell their bodies like whores. <br />
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Of course, David did remind me that not every person are like that. But let me ask you something: How many of you out there, who knows someone that falls into the abovementioned categories? Or experienced it yourself? <br />
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I admit that not all of my friends are that way but let’s face it, some of them does in fact fit into one (if not all) of the above categories. Now don’t get me the wrong way, I still love them as my friends. But heaven forbids, they sure aren’t the model boyfriend materials that I would want to get myself involved with, which kinda explains why I think I’m gonna die alone some day. >.<”
<i>~ jessism © 20120301 ~</i>~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15736338.post-56742031485645860552011-07-10T00:17:00.003+08:002011-07-10T00:19:43.624+08:00RantingThey say, whoever "they" are, that we turn a year wiser with every year we age. Well, to be honest, I could really use with the getting wiser without the aging part. <br /><br />You see, with age, people changed. Not for the better, but for the worse. Your health fails, your memory goes, your looks are gone... If you ask me, it's a whole lot to be sacrificing for an annual gain in wisdom.<br /><br />I really get those who wanted to celebrate this "happy" occassion with me, but to me, happiness never last. My self-thought best relationship turned out to be built on a bunch of lies and ended up in betrayal, my self-thought best job cost me the relationship between me and my mom, my self-preceived best life needs me to put up a front and smile at the people around me so that I won't have them worried about my condition... Happiness, it comes with a price. There are no free lunches in the world.<br /><br />If I can do anything to see the people around me happy, I'd do it. I really need to see them happy, to remind myself that I could still do some good in this world, that there is still a meaning to my existence. <br /><br />In less than 24 hours, I'd be turning another year "wiser". For someone with a huge case of <a href="http://jessism.blogspot.com/2006/01/peter-pan-complex.html" target=new>Peter-Pan Complex</a>, this is a HUGE thing. I used to enjoy keeping to myself on my birthdays, buying a small piece of cake for myself the day before, locking myself in my room, light a candle, sing myself a birthday song, make a wish... Ok, fine. I admit it. It was pathetic and I certainly wasn't enjoying any bit of it. I really detest the sense of getting older. Aging really is my biggest enemy. But there is no way of stopping it now, is there?~ 小狗 ~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17324696488952800349noreply@blogger.com0