Rainy Days

It's the sixth consecutive day it's been raining here.

Nobody likes a rainy weather. Kids hate it because they can't go out. Adults hate it because those noisy monster seed of theirs are always in the house all the time. Not only that, the adults also have to ferry them anywhere and everywhere they needed to be: school, tuition classes, piano lessons, the clinic, the hospital, the emergency room, etc.

I know, kids are such a pain in the ass, aren't they?

Anyway, let's forget about them kids. As the title has it, this is not about those evil monsters. It’s about rain.

How many of you out there actually did take the time to appreciate the rain? I've always love the rain. Especially those drizzly ones... you know, those not enough to get you all wet but they’re there. Just keep falling from the sky.

When I was a kid, I always play in the rain. And of course, I get sick the day after. But it was damn well worth it! Don't believe me? Ask my cousin Irene about the time her, her brother, my brother and me, all got sick on the same day. Our parents are completely baffled by it. We were in the house the whole time. According to the doctor "(maybe) it's the flu virus". Well, maybe we sneaked out through the back door while our parents didn’t notice, played in the rain, and all got sick at the same time?

Present Day.

I still walk under the rain, and I still love rainy days. But the feeling is now completely different. When I was a kid, all I can think of is: "I wanna play in the rain." But when now, all I can think of is: "I want someone to play with in the rain."

Okay... not exactly "play with". When I walk under the rain now, I thought to myself: "how great it would be to have someone share this moment with me". Sometimes, I thought: "wouldn't it be nice if some stranger walks up and offer to share an umbrella?" It is small moments like this when you actually get to see the kindness of strangers, don't you think?

While most people do most of their "profound thinking" while taking a crap in the toilet, I prefer the rain, or even a night on the beach under the moon… okay fine, I'm a sucker for things like this. So sue me.

Tonight, as I look out from the balcony of my apartment building, I see how beautiful the raining night sky is. Lights from a nearby hotel make the drizzling rain look like thick mist. The night lights from the Singapore industrial area looking exceptionally beautiful tonight. It's another beautiful, cold, rainy night.

A Jessism © 11012006 (Originally posted on Fridae)

Peter Pan Complex

Ladies and gentlemen, it's proud for me to announce that I've got the Peter Pan Complex. I always know that I don't want to grow up and be one of those thing they call a 'responsible adult', but I never thought that I would score an 83% out of 100%.

The result came second in an advance global personality test I took, next to romantic (90%) and materialistic (90%). It's no secret that I'm materialistic, and I'm ok with being 90% romantic, but Peter Pan Complex? Really?

Wait. For those of you who has no idea what the heck Peter Pan Complex is all about, here's a somewhat detail explanation of what it is: avoids responsibilities, people tell them they are childish and need to grow up, would rather live in their head than the real world, focuses on fantasies more than reality, believes they deserve to have whatever they want, life lacks direction, never know what to do next, does dumb things frequently, inconsistent performance, lazy, slacker, does the minimum to get by, does things without thinking, does not feel they have any reason to accomplish anything, tend to ignore or put off problems, believes fun is the most important thing in life, most people think they are crazy, forgets scheduled appointments, more past than future, gets attention through negative behaviour.

Okay, I agree that sometimes that I would rather live in my own fantasy land than the real world, and I do think that fun is the most important thing in life. I mean, c’mon! Who doesn't!? But lazy? And people think that I'm crazy!?

So this is the time where I'm giving everybody a chance to talk bad about me. For those of you who are reading this, kindly post a reply and tell me which of the above Peter Pan Complex symptoms that you've seen me act out. (I bet Lin will have something to say about the "does dumb things" part, after what I told her about my weekend.)

Anything at all that you guys can think of, I'm all ears.

This should be interesting.

A Jessism © 04012006