Boyfriend Material...Not!

After living with my housemate for the past three years, we finally had the time to have a one-on-one talk yesterday.

During the conversation, he seemed concerned about my non-existing relationship life and how weird it seems for me to be surrounded by so many people, which seemed potentially available, yet I am still single.

It seems that being gay doesn’t seem as easy as one would think it to be for me. Despite for being the social butterfly of the group, where everyone thought that I would be going out on dates with every Tom, Dick and Harry, I am in fact still single and very much available for the past four and a half years. (Yes, don't believe everything your hear down the grapevine!)

After breaking up with Kenny in 2007, I was unable to find someone who could give me the sense of familiarity that I once had with him. By the time I finally got over the fact that no two person is the same, a year later, I had already seen too much and absorbed too much negativity in me.

First of all, there are those who will flirt with you despite the fact that they are already attached. Then there are those who would use their looks to get in bed with every living being that they could lay their hands on. Oh, let's not forget those who would pretend to be sick, troubled or sad, so that the world would take notice of them. Then of course, the worse are those who would use the person who likes them to do their dirty work and sell their bodies like whores.

Of course, David did remind me that not every person are like that. But let me ask you something: How many of you out there, who knows someone that falls into the abovementioned categories? Or experienced it yourself?

I admit that not all of my friends are that way but let’s face it, some of them does in fact fit into one (if not all) of the above categories. Now don’t get me the wrong way, I still love them as my friends. But heaven forbids, they sure aren’t the model boyfriend materials that I would want to get myself involved with, which kinda explains why I think I’m gonna die alone some day. >.<” ~ jessism © 20120301 ~