Shut

So for gawdknows how many times this year, it came back again. I know it's much worse than the previous times because this time around, I'm complete numb. I could barely feel the sense of any emotion when I should be and it's draining a lot more of my energy than usual when I'm out with that mask I put on when I'm around people.

I'm constantly tired and stressed out and this time around, I really don't know what I could do. I feel like an empty shell. I know that I'm in that shell but somehow, that shell seems to be broken. It's not functioning the way it used to and I'm detached from everything. The world could be burning down and I still won't give a shit about it.

This is no longer a shitting out process. It's slowly shutting down.